“The LORD is my light and my salvation– whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life– of whom shall I be afraid? When evil men advance against me to devour my flesh, when my enemies and my foes attack me, they will stumble and fall.” psalm 27
Hehe heyyyy:) Welcome back to another post! I’m so glad you’re here! Today’s Faithful Friday relates to moments where we may feel alone or unloved. There were a lot of times in my past in which I felt really vulnerable, and judged quite often. I lived in my head, trying to riddle out my anxiety and scared thoughts; I felt like there was no love to turn to at one point, feeling hopeless and damaged. I could not spend my life with people who made these feelings go away, because I was held back by rules and preferences that were uptight and irrational. During this point in my life, I should have turned to God. Though I feel an overflow of love with those around me now, I HAVE to realize that God’s love is enough.
Without the love of Jesus Christ, we would be stuck with the overwhelming weight of sin on our chests, sitting so heavy on our hearts. Even though you may feel lonely, you are never truly alone. I have met so many people who cannot STAND being alone, and honestly, this used to be me! My life’s surroundings involved going to school, and coming straight home to my room. My only sights seen being my bedroom window and the occasional WALKS I went on when I was home alone. It was the same feeling of emptiness day by day, only reaching the outside world from a cell phone and endless FaceTime calls.
I have yet to open up about my times at home, but I have learned that this is a part of my healing, and can be a part of yours, too! After learning from experience, I can definitely say I could not have gotten through what I have without the love of Jesus. Falling asleep was one of the most difficult, tossing and turning wondering what my life would look like in a year or so, when I could finally leave. I’d take a bunch of melatonin, trying anything to fall asleep. Nothing would work, so I would get to writing everything out until my eyes were dried up. Through these times of uncertainty, hardship, and hurt, he was watching over me. He kept me safe and out of harms way, carrying me through something that I did not think I could remotely handle.
In saying all of this, I want you to know that you are absolutely loved. You are wonderfully and beautifully made. God would not put you through what he has if you could not handle it. After reading this, I encourage you to take some time alone and reflect on what blessings came out of you being alone. Reflect on what growth you’ve made by having to do things on your own. I can easily say that Jesus was the saving grace in the what seemed crumbling, broken world I was living in. Though most of the time I was lonely, I was not actually alone. Thank you so much for being here for this little rant of mine, and I hope you got something from it! I’ll check in with you all on Wednesday. MWUAH!
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